Grass is greener, mostly. At least some of the troublesome things feel nice for you?
... not that I don't get the difficulties or struggles you have, just... I guess I'm feeling the struggle connecting with others a little on my end, is all.
I mean, for example... a teammate of mine is pretty close with Salamander. And I can't even explain why that's complicated for me. Even without considering the factors where you're involved.
Uriel can help me with explaining that much, but it's a little less genuine when I have to speak through someone else, right?
And it's the same thing when some of these games demand that you share personal things with your teammates to showcase bonding. The turnover's also not great for that, but...
And you know how tricky it is to talk to others who don't have a vested interest in you only to keeping lying and how people can feel about that if they find out. So... I guess it is a little opposite land, yeah.
[hand is easy to take hold of. and he squeezes her hand, watching her closely.]
... it's your truth to give to who you want. Remember how you once said I could shout the truth to everyone if I wanted? Well, I wouldn't even if I could. Because it's not mine to share with others. It's yours.
I'm pretty sure Kuroro would agree with me on this.
It sort of came up with Suguru. I said I want to try getting the team to bond a little more, and he pointed out how reluctant I am to share anything about myself.
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... not that I don't get the difficulties or struggles you have, just... I guess I'm feeling the struggle connecting with others a little on my end, is all.
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Are we in opposites land? Since when do you struggle with connecting others more than me?
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Uriel can help me with explaining that much, but it's a little less genuine when I have to speak through someone else, right?
And it's the same thing when some of these games demand that you share personal things with your teammates to showcase bonding. The turnover's also not great for that, but...
And you know how tricky it is to talk to others who don't have a vested interest in you only to keeping lying and how people can feel about that if they find out. So... I guess it is a little opposite land, yeah.
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I wish I could help.
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Anyway... I'm still glad you're connecting with others.
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...I keep wondering if I should tell more people the truth. Should my teammates know? Would it be better if they knew?
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... it's your truth to give to who you want. Remember how you once said I could shout the truth to everyone if I wanted? Well, I wouldn't even if I could. Because it's not mine to share with others. It's yours.
I'm pretty sure Kuroro would agree with me on this.
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[why do people keep letting her have agency, how is she supposed to cope with that]
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But that you're thinking of it at all is probably a good sign that you're ready to share some of it.
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But if everyone on Finch withholds things because everyone is withholding things, someone has to make the first move.
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freeing his hand just so he can cup her face.]
It's really okay. If you're nervous, you can start with someone who's a bit more accepting, right? Like Jesper.
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Well. He... at least has the right idea, even with the wrong person.
Not sure how anyone would think they're the same.
[BOY HOWDY THE THINGS MERLOT DID IN HIS HEART...]
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I love Jesper, but he's not always the brightest.
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Either way, I feel like he would gladly help you out with finding the best way to go about telling Finch. Or, at least, be supportive when you do.
You know Kuroro and me would gladly be there for support, too.
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